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October 12, 2008
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(Contains: nudity)

Dysphoriaby alexiuss

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Everyday I wake in panic,
Heartbeat racing like manic.
Since you are so far away.
So metallic, inorganic.

Everyday exactly the same.
I fear this darkness I’ll never tame.
I’ve got worldly love and fame,
Who am I here to complain?

But it matters not today
For the shadow I became.
Call me what you will, my friend.
But I shall not condescend.

This I cannot apprehend.
Everyday has the same trend.
You will never read these words,
Ashes rise like a flock of birds.

In the eye of a hurricane,
The calm air seems mundane.
I am here to entertain.
Blind leading the insane.

How to deal with this pain?
Heartbeat I cannot contain.
Everyday, a cloudy rain.
Everyday, another grain.

Empty world,
Here stands unfurled.
Flailing like a wingless bird.
Filled with madness, so absurd.

Everyday I say goodbye,
Everyday I dreams deny.
And to you I here reply,
You are not alone.

I repeat the same routine.
Wake up somewhere in between,
Staring at the flashing screen.
Turn the page and change the scene.

Everyday for you I lust,
But I do not have your trust.
Everyday- the same routine.
Must you feel so numb?

Madness passing by, unseen.
The clock strikes again, thirteen.
All these actions so obscene.
What have I become?

What it is:
Photoshop CS + my poem
Hardware used: Wacom Intuos 6x8 tablet
Real size: 11000x5984 pixels or 36x19 inches
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God I love your work.
Gigerz Jan 16, 2012  Hobbyist
everything about this is beautiful!!!
he he nice bum!
wow. powerful!
mike-reiss Nov 11, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
A fantastic pice of art!
I love it... Great Image :-)
Aurora-Storm Oct 24, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
I love your work - the style of environmental, mostly post-apocalyptic, concept art. I'm enraptured with the scenery, and it's such a powerful image... until I get to the bottom, and there's often a girl in some state of nudity. I've looked through your gallery, and I do admire some of your photoshoots. I also enjoy the curvature of the female form as much as the next person. I guess I'm wondering: why do you feel the need to include woman in so much of your art? I hate to say it, because of course the choice is yours, but I would admire some of your pieces far more without the inclusion of women.
when I was a kid I painted only landscapes without any people. Now I got bored of that so I constantly have to include someone in a painting.
Aurora-Storm Oct 25, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
It's a fair enough answer. Thanks for your response.
NirvanaNeron Aug 8, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
That'll be pretty scary to see O.o
Amazing work as always.:D
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