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October 12, 2008
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(Contains: nudity)

Dysphoriaby alexiuss

Mature Content

Everyday I wake in panic,
Heartbeat racing like manic.
Since you are so far away.
So metallic, inorganic.

Everyday exactly the same.
I fear this darkness I’ll never tame.
I’ve got worldly love and fame,
Who am I here to complain?

But it matters not today
For the shadow I became.
Call me what you will, my friend.
But I shall not condescend.

This I cannot apprehend.
Everyday has the same trend.
You will never read these words,
Ashes rise like a flock of birds.

In the eye of a hurricane,
The calm air seems mundane.
I am here to entertain.
Blind leading the insane.

How to deal with this pain?
Heartbeat I cannot contain.
Everyday, a cloudy rain.
Everyday, another grain.

Empty world,
Here stands unfurled.
Flailing like a wingless bird.
Filled with madness, so absurd.

Everyday I say goodbye,
Everyday I dreams deny.
And to you I here reply,
You are not alone.

I repeat the same routine.
Wake up somewhere in between,
Staring at the flashing screen.
Turn the page and change the scene.

Everyday for you I lust,
But I do not have your trust.
Everyday- the same routine.
Must you feel so numb?

Madness passing by, unseen.
The clock strikes again, thirteen.
All these actions so obscene.
What have I become?

What it is:
Photoshop CS + my poem
Hardware used: Wacom Intuos 6x8 tablet
Real size: 11000x5984 pixels or 36x19 inches
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aaron120 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2013
God I love your work.
Gigerz Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2012  Hobbyist
everything about this is beautiful!!!
mrsnubeh Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2011
he he nice bum!
divinehotdog Featured By Owner May 13, 2011
GOOD stuff.
folders Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2010
wow. powerful!
mike-reiss Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
A fantastic pice of art!
I love it... Great Image :-)
Aurora-Storm Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
I love your work - the style of environmental, mostly post-apocalyptic, concept art. I'm enraptured with the scenery, and it's such a powerful image... until I get to the bottom, and there's often a girl in some state of nudity. I've looked through your gallery, and I do admire some of your photoshoots. I also enjoy the curvature of the female form as much as the next person. I guess I'm wondering: why do you feel the need to include woman in so much of your art? I hate to say it, because of course the choice is yours, but I would admire some of your pieces far more without the inclusion of women.
alexiuss Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2009
when I was a kid I painted only landscapes without any people. Now I got bored of that so I constantly have to include someone in a painting.
Aurora-Storm Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
It's a fair enough answer. Thanks for your response.
NirvanaNeron Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
That'll be pretty scary to see O.o
Amazing work as always.:D
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